“Feeling blind, I realize
All I was searching for, was me”

– Ben Howard, Keep Your Head Up

I just love this song so much. It gives me hope. I don’t know the story behind it, but the lyrics speak to me of recovery, of healing and discovery – of connection with yourself, and the people who love (and I mean truly love) you:

Now I saw a friend of mine, the other day
And he told me that my eyes were gleamin’
Oh I said I’d been away, and he knew
Oh he knew the depths I was meanin’
And it felt so good to see his face
All the comfort invested in my soul
Oh to feel the warmth, of his smile
When he said, ‘I’m happy to have you home.’

I haven’t even left yet, and I’m already looking forward to coming home.
And I mean really coming home.

Keep Your Head Up

I spent my time, watching
The spaces that have grown between us
And I cut my mind on second best
Oh the scars that come with the greenness
And I gave my eyes to the boredom
Still the seabed wouldn’t let me in
And I try my best to embrace the darkness
In which I swim

Now walking back, down this mountain
The strength of a turnin’ tide
Oh the wind so soft, and my skin
Yeah the sun so hot upon my side
Oh lookin’ out at this happiness
I searched for between the sheets
Oh feelin’ blind, I realize
All I was searchin’ for, was me
Oh oh-oh, all I was searchin’ for was me

Oh yeah, keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no, keep your mind set, keep your hair long
Oh my, my darlin’, keep your head up, keep your heart strong
Na, oh, no, no, keep your mind set in your ways
Keep your heart strong
Now I saw a friend of mine, the other day
And he told me that my eyes were gleamin’
Oh I said I’d been away, and he knew
Oh he knew the depths I was meanin’
And it felt so good to see his face
All the comfort invested in my soul
Oh to feel the warmth, of his smile
When he said, ‘I’m happy to have you home.’
Oh oh-oh, I’m happy to have you home

Oh yeah, keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no, keep your mind set, keep your hair long
Oh my, my darlin’, keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no, keep your mind set in your ways
Well keep your heart strong

‘Cause I’ll always remember you the same
Oh eyes like wildflowers, oh with your demons of change

May you find happiness here
(Keep your head up)
(Keep your heart strong)
(Keep your head up)
(Keep your heart strong)
May all your hopes all turn out right

Keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no, keep your mind set, keep your hair long
Oh my, my darlin’, keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no, keep your mind set in your ways
Keep your heart strong

‘Cause I’ll always remember you the same
Oh eyes like wildflowers, oh with your demons of change

Written by Benjamin John Howard • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc

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9 comments

  1. Yes, without music, what would be the point of trying? It has been one of the most important parts of my recovery. Today I prefer music/instrumental and songs not as much as It takes me away and I’m not focusing on the lyrics. But songs like this are the best.

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    1. Totally agree. Yesterday I downloaded literally ALL of the music for while I’m away. (Anxiety kicks in that I may not have whatever I want to listen for whatever emotions I’m going through lol). It’s definitely therapy for me. When I write I can’t listen to anything with lyrics though – Lindsey Stirling is my go to 🙂 so much emotion and it clears my mind.

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      1. I’m a little concerned about the strict routine at recovery – gym at 7:30am (NOT a problem) – but lights out at 10pm. It’s going to be a bit of a trip trying to get into that routine. If I can, it will be beyond refreshing. I don’t think I’ve slept more than 3 or 4 hours a night for the last 5 years or more.

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